Cynthia
Toronto, CAN
Cynthia reflects on her transformative journey from a tumultuous upbringing in a violent, alcoholic household to her pursuit of happiness through conventional means like marriage, career, and religion. Despite achieving societal markers of success, she found herself unfulfilled and embarked on a spiritual quest.

Background
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Cynthia experimented with various religious paths, including Catholicism and the United Church, but none provided the lasting contentment she sought. Battling personal struggles, she eventually turned to alcohol as a means of coping. The turning point came when, contemplating suicide, a friend introduced her to a 12-step program for adult children of alcoholics, reigniting her commitment to a spiritual path.
She narrates her progression through different spiritual practices, including Carlos Castaneda’s teachings, and her eventual immersion in Buddhism. The 12-step program, which she credits with saving her life, paved the way for her deeper exploration of Buddhist teachings.
Cynthia shares the challenges of balancing her spiritual journey with the demands of daily life, family responsibilities, and career. She emphasizes the significance of emotional balance and the transformative power of Buddhism in providing a stable foundation amidst life’s ups and downs.
Currently, Cynthia is an active Buddhist practitioner in the Vajrayana tradition, following the teachings of the late Choegyam Trungpa Rinpoche. She serves as a practice instructor and facilitates study classes, integrating her spiritual path into all aspects of her life, including administrative roles within the Buddhist community.
Voice & Presence
Cynthia’s story unfolds as a testament to the profound impact of spiritual practice on emotional well-being and
the ability to navigate life’s challenges with equanimity. Her journey exemplifies the transformative power of
mindfulness, acceptance, and a commitment to inner peace. Explore her videos below.
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Lineage
As a follower of the Vajrayana path, Cynthia emphasizes the importance of authentic teachings and the guidance of a lineage teacher. Cynthia elucidates the progressive stages of meditation, starting with Shamatha, focusing on breath and gradually incorporating impure and pure objects. She delves into analytical meditation, vipassana, and Mahayana practices, emphasizing the expansion of compassion to all sentient beings. With devotion to her teacher, the Buddha, and the Dharma, Cynthia finds resonance in the teachings that permeate every aspect of her life. She appreciates her teacher’s skill in making Buddhism relatable through contemporary references, demonstrating the relevance of the path even in challenging times like the pandemic.
Refuge
“Trust, a concept previously elusive to her due to a challenging upbringing, gradually became a cornerstone in her spiritual journey.”
Professional Impact
“In Cynthia’s journey, the intersection of energy healing and the Vajrayana path becomes a pivotal point of understanding and synergy.”
“The clarity and the change in my life and how I lived my life and how I view life and how I interact with people. That’s the proof that it’s working. It’s not checking off boxes.”
Sangha Development
In Cynthia’s current role within the directors’ discussions at the organizational level, she grapples with the unique challenges of managing a voluntary Buddhist organization. Through a detailed analysis of various Canadian sanghas, such as Halifax, Vancouver, Montreal, and Toronto, Cynthia highlights the distinctive factors influencing each center’s dynamics. Vancouver stands out with a resident lama, fostering a larger membership, while Montreal thrives on a vibrant French community’s engagement, offering classes translated into French. Toronto faces distinct challenges, having recently moved to a new center, focusing on financial stability, and struggling with manpower limitations. The city’s high cost of living, diverse university offerings, and the convenience factor contribute to the complexities of attracting and retaining members.
Cynthia candidly acknowledges the challenges in maintaining sangha engagement, especially during the ongoing transition to hybrid in-person and virtual sessions post-pandemic. She emphasizes the need for balance as a lay practitioner, recognizing the shared human struggle of finding equilibrium amidst daily life commitments. Cynthia reflects on her personal journey, noting the pivotal moments when individuals transition from passive observers to actively engaged contributors within the sangha. She underscores the importance of respecting each person’s unique path, readiness, and preparation for active involvement.
Despite grappling with challenges, Cynthia remains committed to creating a harmonious sangha environment. She anticipates the upcoming events, such as the big opening in September with Lama Yeshe and the introduction of hybrid sessions, to rejuvenate the sangha’s energy. Cynthia’s narrative provides valuable insights into the nuanced dynamics of managing a Buddhist sangha, balancing the practicalities of administration with the need for spiritual engagement.
Fruit of Practice
Cynthia reflects on the transformative impact of her Buddhist practice, emphasizing that the proof of its efficacy lies in the clarity and positive changes it has brought to her life. She moves away from merely checking off boxes, focusing instead on how she lives, views life, and interacts with others. Cynthia shares a profound personal example involving her relationship with her difficult, angry mother who had a stroke. Despite the habitual tendencies manifesting in hurtful words and actions, Cynthia’s practice allowed her to maintain an open heart, offering love to her mother until the end. This experience became a testament to the effectiveness of her Buddhist path.
Furthermore, Cynthia discusses the shift in her relationship with her ex-husband, exemplifying her aspiration for a loving, kind connection for the sake of their shared children. Her commitment to keeping her heart open and fostering positive interactions, even during events like their daughter’s engagement party, demonstrates the practical application of her Buddhist principles in everyday life.
Cynthia acknowledges the importance of self-validation, recognizing internal changes and responses as the true indicators of growth. She finds joy in the freedom to accept diverse perspectives, even those she may not agree with, fostering an inclusive and open-minded approach. An amusing anecdote about catching her mind projecting, leading to uncontrollable laughter, showcases the joy she finds in self-awareness and the ability to detach from habitual thought patterns.
In essence, Cynthia’s narrative highlights the profound impact of her Buddhist practice on her relationships, reactions, and overall approach to life, emphasizing the tangible and transformative outcomes rather than adherence to rigid checkboxes.
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